“I am going to die, sorry”: Pregnant mum’s texts husband and lover she couldn’t choose between and hanged herself

Describing her as “quite a troubled soul” ho had endured a traumatic childhood, the coroner said: “It was a waste of a young life.”
A tragic young mum torn between her husband and lover killed herself – after becoming pregnant during her extra-marital affair.
Tammy Paterson, 24, hanged herself at home days before she was due to have an abortion, an inquest heard.
Troubled by conflicting emotions, she sent a text to both estranged husband Ian Paterson, 28, and lover John Lewis, 36, saying simply: “I am going to die, sorry.”
She had repeatedly changed her mind about whether she wanted to keep the child she was due to have with college lecturer Mr Lewis.
But she had also sent her husband a text the week before saying she loved him, the hearing was told.

Torn: Tammy with husband Ian and daughter Abigail

Tammy had only been married three years when she broke up with husband Ian, the father of their three-year-old daughter Abigail.
The special constable, of Connah’s Quay, Flintshire, North Wales, started an affair with lecturer Mr Lewis after meeting him on a public services course, confiding in the teacher about her problems and the possibility of them dating.
Mr Lewis initially rejected her advances, but the pair later started an affair and their relationship grew more intense.
Ex-soldier Mr Lewis, of Bala, Gwynedd, said his involvement with Tammy blossomed in the last weeks of her course.
He told the hearing: “I loved her and wanted to be with her. We were hoping for a future together.”
Initially, Tammy told him she wanted their baby and pledged to stick with him.
But later she changed her mind and vowed to abort the unborn child and focus on her career in the police force.
Tammy, from Lithuania, sent the heartbreaking text announcing her death to family and friends as well as the two men in her life.

Lover: Lecturer John Lewis

The inquest heard that on the day she died, Mr Lewis dashed to the Asda supermarket where Tammy was working but was told she had not arrived.
He and Tammy’s brother broke into her locked house and found her hanged in the bedroom in her police issue trousers, blouse and hat.
She left notes for her daughter and husband on the bed.
North East Wales coroner John Gittins said it was “a very, very sad case”.
Describing Mrs Paterson as “quite a troubled soul”, who had endured a traumatic childhood in Lithuania where her stepfather had been murdered, he added: “It was a waste of a young life.”